Soft Winds
For some time I have admired the genius of Meg Myers and this song was my deluded attempt to emulate the power of her raw emotions of anger and desire so beautifully performed in her compositions. I borrowed the chord structure from "Make A Shadow" and, though I tried to make the same explosive, controlled-scream, vocal transition, I could not make it work. I hope she doesn't sue.
This song is about dwelling on the past, refusing to let go and romancing the memory of those who've left us until it becomes an illness. Time will set us gently back to Earth. No matter how devastating or incomprehensible the loss.
Another gratitude call out to Kevin Curtin for laying down a couple sweet guitar licks for this song.
Sometimes it feels like you are still here listening
Waiting for the things we left unsaid
As if you heard that hard rain on my window last night
And are standing here before me in the morning light
Sometimes it seems that you are right here with me
Sitting close the way you used to do
And all those things we used to think about ourselves are true
Back when you needed me like I needed you
Back back
I wanna go back
Back to that day
Back back but you can’t go back
You fucking went away
Can’t quite wrap my head around why people get so close
Just to disappear forever never seeing one another
Just dissolve as if we’re ghosts
Where did you go? Come talk to me
I’ll love you once again
We’ll play like little children
With our imaginary friends
Cause I’d do anything today to have you back an hour
To feel the way I used to feel in the shadow of your power
And now I feel a soft wind on my shoulder
Reminding me I am here alone
That I changed somewhere along that road
In your absence and in my grief
This is how it was always meant to be
So best if you don’t call on me tomorrow
If I don’t let you go I can’t be free
I’ll say goodbye one final time, move on and let it be
I love you and I forgive you for leaving me
I thank you and I love you
I love you and I’ll miss you